Growing Stories (一)

When I was a little girl, I always dreamed to be a growed-up person. And sometimes I would pretend to be an adult by wearing my mom's clothes and shoes. My families always made fun of me and said I was a little adult. I brought them much fun. However, when I really grow up, I begin to be afraid of growing up. I don't know how to describe my mood. It is really hard to say. To certain degree, the reason is that I don't want to be resposible for something. You know, adults always have these or those resposibilities, such as supporting family, and having a new family. I tried my hard to stay in a university, so that I can stop these resposibilities coming so soon.

About three months ago, I got to know my bf. He is a nice guy. Since then I began to think what is the most important thing to me--family or career? When I was alone, I would choose career without hesitation. However, when I am with him, I will intend to say it is family that I like most.

Now, there are two ways ahead of me. The first one is going abroad. The second one is stay in China. No-matter what way I will choose, I think it should be the best way for my family yet to come. My bf said it is better for us to be in USA. Although it is a little hard for me to do so, I will do my best. Now there is only 5 months most for me to finish all things. Heihei...

Father, You can help me do all those things! Thank You, amen!

Thank You, my LORD!

Dear my Father,

Thank You for Your leading of my life. Although in the past I would hate to be a girl, now I feel so happy. Although in the past I hate to have an old bf, now I feel so satisfied. He is a good man. He is now working so hard to earn money. I care him very much. How I wish You LORD led him to earn as much money as he could, so that we could do many things for You. Now we are two poor persons. We have too little money to have confidence to have a beautiful tomorrow, let alone the plan to help others. I know I am selfish, as I always put myself and my family before others. But I really want to have a good family, so that I could concentrate on what You want me to do. I want a house. I want a family. I want a place to stay whenever. Dear my Father, please help me to take care of him, and help him to do his business. You are our LORD. You can do everthing You can do.

Thank You LORD deeply.

Yours,
Abby

A Good Starting

Yesterday afternoon, my bf told me that one friend of his introduced him to a foreigner who is in China for purchasing lots of socks. I know this friend is really good. He know my bf needs money. However, he doesn't lend money to my bf, but gives him a chance to earn money on his own.

Although I don't know how many socks the foreigner will purchase, it is, after all, the first trade of my bf. I think he will do his best.

Right now he told me that he has already met this foreigner, and now he is in Shaoxing to contact the sock factory. I cannot do anything to help him, but pray for him.

Father, please help him to successfully finish this trade, so that he will have great confidence to go on. Please take care of him!

Thank God! Pray in the name of God, Amen!

A Moving Story

Several days ago I went to Hangzhou for something for two days. On that night when I was about to leave, I was sufferring from the attack from a gang of little flies but mosquitoes. My two shranks were covered by many many itches. I could not bear them, scratch them and complain them all the time. My bf cared me, wanted to help me to be better, and went out for something medicine liquid. At that moment we were sitting along the Weat Lake. And it would be difficult to find out a drugstore. I waited for him about ten minutes while I was scratching itches. When I was anxious to go to train station, he went back with a little bottle in his hand. After my shranks were getting better. He told me that in order to find a drugstore, he was running all the time. To the west, he got the place we had dinner. It was about twenty minutes walk there. To the east, he reached the place where we hided from the storm. It was about thirty minutes walk there. To the north, he must got far. However, he only took ten minutes to run here and there. Although he ran a lot, no drugstore was found. Luckily, he remembered to ask for it from a waiter in a hotel, and got one.

We all know it is only a small thing. But we can see from it that he cares me very much. Not long before, an Aunt of a resterant told me that my bf was very good, and I should cherish him.

Maybe the old difference is big. Maybe he have many stories. I don't care. I only care he is happy with me. I only care he will be happy from now on. I care him.

Thank God! Amen!

Who Am I???

It has been so long a time that I lost the inclination to put down my mood. If friends ask me why, I would say that I was busy. However, it is not the fact! The truth is I lost myself in the past three months. Can you believe it or not?

This evening when I logged in my email account I havenot checked it for a long time, I found a new email--it is from Fan Yong, a classmate of mine. He said, this August I would fly to USA to study, and our classmates and he would not have time to say goodbye to me, so he emailed me and told me that he always take me as his example as I am a ready girl for knowledge, and a smart girl. Yes! I am a smart girl, I am a girl ready for knowledge! His words help me to find myself back.

In the past I wasted a lot of time to dawdle here and there, but I will not regret, because the past is past, it can not come back, and today is slidding away, tomorrow is coming.

Thank God for letting me read this email. Thank God for His leading. Thank Fan Yong.

Now Tingting Zhang is back!!!

"Some birds don’t mean to be caged. Their feathers are just too bright."
-----------The Shawshank Redemption

The Rain in Hangzhou

Two days ago I went to Hangzhou for something. I stayed there for only two days, however, I was lucky enough to have a look at the storm rain which is said to be hard to catch. Well, let me detail it.

On that day, it had been very very hot since morning. My friend and I could not bear the hot weather, so we decided to have a walk along the west lake. After sitting on a bench for a long while, we found that the sky in west was charging into black. At once, the wind on the lake was getting stronger and stronger. My friend adviced me to leave as soon as we could, as strom was coming. However, we only stepped few when we past by a small resterant, the strom came. This resterant had many big unbrellas outside to hold customers. Because of the quick strom, some of them were blown away. I was frightened to death. Fortunately, my friend was smart, and begged the lord of this resterant to let us stay for a while. It was a small house, but it held seven people. The strom out side was very strong.

To be continued...

The past is past...

In the past, I am a girl who is stubborn and paid little attention to others' advise. Although I did get something good for my persistence, I paid much for it too. I don't know what's wrong with me. I thought I was mature enough to judge something, but my old brothers always told me to follow their words. The facts also showed me that I did great wrongly when I faced those two things--the first one is about study; the other one is about boyfriend. In fact, I don't want to confess that I was wrong. I just want to say that I am different. I hate to be same with others, and I want to be myself. This thought, however, brought me many unpredictable bad things. I am confusing now. Should I persist now, or should I give up my ground and just to act as a puppet? I hate sighing, but I do it a lot now.

God, my Father, You are over me, watching me, and weeping for me. You tell me what to do next. You are my God. You created the world and know everything in this world, so it is easy for You to supervise my life. My Father, You help me!

At last, I want to give myself several words: "The past is past, but tomorrow is still in my hands."

Thank God!

I am coming back...

Dear my Father,

I am so sorry for what I have done in the past. I was stupid, as I tried to abandon Your words and Your way. I got much pain. Now I am very tired, and want to go back home. Will You welcome me? I know You are happy that I am back, and You will be the happiest one.

You are leading my way...

Thank You!!!

Your girl,
Abigale